Warning: Whine-Fest Ahead

(I gotta bitch about some things in my life or I'll go nuts. Read if you wish, if you don't...you're not missing much and I won't be offended.)

Well, the rental car in Texas wound up costing me MUCH more than expected. Not because of the actual cost of the damn thing, but because the deposit on my card wound up debiting from my bank acct. immediately. Because of that...and the fact that Bank of America sucks and doesn't tell you your account balance is low/in the negative when you've signed up for banking alerts to tell you just that very thing...I wound up with about $200 in overdraft fees. Great, eh?

Well, take the $200+ out, the rent, the utilities, the car insurance payment, a tank of gas, as well as a certified, raised-seal copy of my birth certificate so my "expedited" passport application that has been held up somewhere in New Hampshire for over a week can finally be processed (I need it for work/play...I know I could have done it for cheaper)...and I'm left with 2 bucks on the day after payday. This 2 dollars has to last me 'til Friday the 15th...and sometime between the 13th and the 16th I have to fly all over the damn place to pick up my Brasilia jumpseat time.

I'm a mess. I've been sick all week with a shitty head cold, my left shoulder..."the good shoulder"...is hurting so bad I can barely lift my car keys, and I'm kinda depressed after being home. Hell, I was kinda depressed anyway. I miss my friends, my girl left me a month ago, I'm a financial wreck when I thought I'd be caught up on most things by now, and I still don't really know anyone here except for a few coworkers I occasionally converse with at work, but little else.

Luckily, I managed to get my guitar here after the trip to Texas. Been working on re-learning how to play it. Taught myself Reckless Kelly's "Break My Heart Tonight" after I got home from work.

I hate sounding like such a pansy and bitching about everything...but I really don't know what else to do now. Nothing has gone my way since I got this job. That's a bright spot...I like my new job. But, my competency check is coming next week and I'm so afraid I'm going to bomb it.

(insert encouraging words...please)

And once again...you know I'm not too proud to beg...

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Current Music: Reckless Kelly - Break My Heart Tonight