Life is extra boring at the moment. There really is nothing to do in this town. I've done laundry and picked up my room a bit...had a few beers...and watched a bunch of TV. Kinda sucks. I guess I could go join a gym (and I should, I'm getting so fat spending 90% of my days in front of a computer), but I feel less than motivated lately. I think work is one of the only things that make coming out here for this job bearable. I work alot...then I travel for a few days. If I have downtime in St. George, I go crazy. I really do like my job...but I am more and more starting to hate living here. Thank God I'm able to fly out of here when I want.
I've worked 2 days in the last week and a half. This paycheck is gonna suck. I was off for 5 days when I went home to Denton for a few days...then off my normal 3 days off after 2 days of work.
In Denton, I played in our annual flag football game (my team won...on the shoulders of former North Texas TE Andy Blount and Rec Sports guru John Wilson) and kept a nice steady flow of Shiner Bock going. It was pretty relaxing, but I feel pretty crappy about not going to Gainesville for at least one day and visiting family.
Yes, I said it. I feel bad for not visiting family. My relationships with my immediate family pretty much suck. I've got issues with them, they have issues with me. I do love visiting my grandparents, though. However, despite the crappy relationship I have with my family, my little brother...whom I've never really gotten along with...is leaving for Air Force basic training tomorrow and I wish I could have at least got a beer with him before he left. We've had our differences in the past, but I wish him the best of luck and I'm proud of what he's doing. I'm not much of a "pray-er" these days...but I'll definitely be thinking of my brother alot.
I've had alot on my mind lately as far as being depressed, not really having any real friends out here, and general loneliness. I heard from someone really special to me last week for the first time since right after I moved here...and my overwhelming desire to try to rekindle that relationship has got me feeling a bit rollercoaster-ish. I still love her...and really, I kinda think she may feel the same to a certain extent. Since that initial contact last week, I haven't heard anything from her...so now I'm left just kinda feeling like maybe I really should just move on. Of course, that's not what I want...I want to be with her again...or at least see her again. I was really happy to hear that she was doing alot better than she was when things went south for us. Seems like things are much better than before. I don't think the problems were my fault...nor her fault. Circumstances just sucked.
Been thinking about trying to go back to school and get a degree. Maybe Aviation Management from Utah Valley State. They offer a completely online degree where most of the course work is flight school. However, despite the fact that I was barely above the poverty level last year, being male, middle-class, and white keeps me from qualifying for jack squat as far as grants and subsidized loans go. I don't currently have the means to work full time, make a living, take classes and do flight school everyday...so I guess that's off, for now anyway. Right now, I need to concentrate on clearing up my credit issues, maybe doing flight school and a degree later, and working on perking up a little.
The Mavs blew it last night...not sure what the hell happened to Dirk. Hopefully third time will be the charm next season. Speaking of sports, I need to go to a baseball game soon. Usually, I've been to one or two by this point in the season...and there's no pro baseball in Utah. Well, there's a minor league team up in Salt Lake...but I want my Red Sox and Rangers. Hopefully, I'll make one in the next few weeks. Gonna try to visit Lisa in Baltimore soon and go to an O's game. Kevin Millar is still one of my favorite players...and it's Major League Baseball...good enough for me.
Also, I'm looking to make a trip to London or Sydney sometime soon. I just don't want to go alone and my travel partners are...well...non-existent. Might go by myself anyway.
Oh yeah, lost my damn iPod. Well, I guess it was Karma. I found it in a seatback pocket on an airplane when I wa working at the other airline. I think I left it in the seatback pocket of the Delta flight I took to DFW last week. Oh well...at least I have my laptop now.
Guess that's all I got for now. Gotta get one last load of laundry in the dryer and iron some shirts. I really need to just start dropping my shirts and decent pants to the cleaners. I hate ironing.
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Current Music: Ryan Adams - Come Pick Me Up
Current Weight: Too Much
