I Should Really Be In Bed...

Well...

It's been a pretty long week. I'm getting pretty bored with KGAF. I mean, it's a good gig and all...but playing the same old country music gets pretty boring...even though I like the stuff. I just get the feeling alot of times that Tom doesn't really like me at all and I think Shelly is starting to dislike me, too. Not to toot my own horn or anything, but I really think it's because I know too much as far as how the radio station SHOULD operate and how I want to do things my way and they have their way. Of course, I have to do things their way. But sometimes it drives me insane. They're great people, though.

Later today is the big ass Pit Crew tailgate. I'm excited as hell. We've all put in alot of work on this thing...Cody and Kevin especially have been kicking ass. It's so cool that we were able to pull this off with no budget and less than 5 days of planning. We've got Five Times August and PhoolWay for entertainment and free food, too! We rule.

I'm feeling a little deflated right now. Don't really need to go into it here because too many people who are important to me read this...but I just feel like I'm experiencing the same ol' thing over and over again. That aspect of my life just sucks. It always winds up this way for me. Nothing I can do about it, though...

I shouldn't complain though. I've got alot of good things going on in my life. I have great friends and 2 great radio gigs that are putting me in a position to be where I wanna be in life. I'm just lonely right now. The holidays really do a number on me. Other than my grandparents, I sometimes I feel like I have no family and I hate not having 'someone' to share the holidays with. Because of this, I wind up being a hardcore grinch. I don't really HATE the holidays...I just...well...I guess I just hate the holidays when I don't have any real reason to like them.

I should just shut up now. I'm starting to sound like a whiney bitch. I'm really not a whiney bitch all the time...I just come across that way because I focus on the negative too much sometimes.

Hope to see some of you at the tailgate shindig tonight (Sat., Dec. 4th) at 5pm.

Until next time, this has been Justin Winters with your KPFC color weather radar forecast.